Happy Monday, sweet friends.
No, I’m not pregnant. So, now that we’ve gotten that out of the way….
I’ve always thought I would have 2 kids. I never even considered having 3. As a little girl growing up, when I would dream of my future family, I saw 2 kiddos. That was most likely because I have one brother. My mom talks about knowing she was done after me. (Save the best for last, I suppose.)
My husband has always agreed with me. 2 kids is perfect. No need for a minivan. Man-on-man coverage. A nice, neat, round number. We’re all set for rollercoasters. No one is left out.
But. What has caught me off guard is this feeling of not being….done. Aren’t I supposed to feel a sense of completion? Don’t get me wrong: I feel complete when I look at my sweet little family. I don’t feel like something or someone is missing.
Maybe I just have baby fever. I’ve been trying to discern the difference between baby fever and the strong desire to add to our family. Because it’s true. Babies don’t keep.
Or, maybe it’s because I enjoyed Evy’s first year SO MUCH, whereas during Harper’s I was freaked out and knee-deep in Postpartum Anxiety. I thoroughly enjoyed Everly’s first year. (Fine, I enjoyed most of it.) I knew the days of those squishy newborn snuggles would be gone in a blink.
Maybe I’m feeling this way because my baby girl just turned 1 and is way too quickly transitioning from babyhood to toddlerhood, despite my desperate pleas for time to slow down.
Whatever the case, I know that I can’t go wrong. I truly know that if we are done, my heart is and will always be absolutely filled with my people. And, if by some crazy chance we’re not done, anything that comes our way is meant to come.
Well, that’s my heart for today….
Now onto my sweatshirt that is selling quickly, and for good reason. It’s a little structured and a whole lot of comfy. I’m a sucker for this color, especially for spring. And, it runs small, so size up.
You might be tired of me talking about my love for these leggings, but for real, I’m never going to stop. Ever.
And, FLASHBACK sneakers FTW.
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Spoiler alert: we had a third! Meet Baby Gray here!
I’m having the same feeling these days. I thought once we had our boy we would be done but I’m having totally baby fever these days. I too wonder if it’s just all hitting me that he’s already a year old and time just seemed to really fly this time around. The biggest thing is my husband is all about the more the merrier so he is no help in logic. ?
Oh, girl. How are our babies 1 year old??? Maybe you will have another one and I can live vicariously through you 😉
I’m knee deep in chaos with 11 week old twins and a 3.5 year old, and I’m 38 years old- and I still don’t know if I’m ready to be “done.” ??
Duuuuude! Haha. I’m pretty sure that means baby fever never goes away. Ahhh! xo
I don’t even have a baby yet but I’ve got baby fever! haha love your shoes !
Que Sera Sahra
Haha. Thanks, Sahra! xo
I thought I was done after two … like you, my idea of my family in my head always included just two kiddos. Then I got pregnant unexpectedly with a third, and shortly after, lost it. Following that, my heart was a little empty. My husband and I talked and agreed to try for a third child. We lost another a year later but kept trying and eventually got Ella. And I cannot tell you how strong that sense of knowing that THIS was exactly what we needed was … with her, I felt to the depths of my soul that my family was complete! Follow your heart … you’ll know with time!
Awww, love. I’m sorry for your losses, but so glad you have your sweet Ella. <3
I did know I was done after my 3rd, after my 2nd I was kind like you and it was ok if it happened or didn’t, but after my 3rd, I was fine! ? but I think I will alway have baby fever! I love a little baby snuggle, it just so precious ❤️
That’s good to know! And yes, babies are just so squishy – I think I’ll probably always have baby fever, too! xo
I feel the exact same way. Two boys and just not sure if I’m done or not yet. Wish I had that feeling of completion, too.