Happy Monday, sweet friends.
No, I’m not pregnant. So, now that we’ve gotten that out of the way….
I’ve always thought I would have 2 kids. I never even considered having 3. As a little girl growing up, when I would dream of my future family, I saw 2 kiddos. That was most likely because I have one brother. My mom talks about knowing she was done after me. (Save the best for last, I suppose.)
My husband has always agreed with me. 2 kids is perfect. No need for a minivan. Man-on-man coverage. A nice, neat, round number. We’re all set for rollercoasters. No one is left out.
But. What has caught me off guard is this feeling of not being….done. Aren’t I supposed to feel a sense of completion? Don’t get me wrong: I feel complete when I look at my sweet little family. I don’t feel like something or someone is missing.
Maybe I just have baby fever. I’ve been trying to discern the difference between baby fever and the strong desire to add to our family. Because it’s true. Babies don’t keep.
Or, maybe it’s because I enjoyed Evy’s first year SO MUCH, whereas during Harper’s I was freaked out and knee-deep in Postpartum Anxiety. I thoroughly enjoyed Everly’s first year. (Fine, I enjoyed most of it.) I knew the days of those squishy newborn snuggles would be gone in a blink.
Maybe I’m feeling this way because my baby girl just turned 1 and is way too quickly transitioning from babyhood to toddlerhood, despite my desperate pleas for time to slow down.
Whatever the case, I know that I can’t go wrong. I truly know that if we are done, my heart is and will always be absolutely filled with my people. And, if by some crazy chance we’re not done, anything that comes our way is meant to come.
Well, that’s my heart for today….
Now onto my sweatshirt that is selling quickly, and for good reason. It’s a little structured and a whole lot of comfy. I’m a sucker for this color, especially for spring. And, it runs small, so size up.
You might be tired of me talking about my love for these leggings, but for real, I’m never going to stop. Ever.
And, FLASHBACK sneakers FTW.
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Spoiler alert: we had a third! Meet Baby Gray here!